Just Can’t Tell

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Now that my word count is out of the way, I can not talk about all the other things!

I’m watching Mindhunter right now. Netflix recommended it, a friend recommended it, I’m watching it. I’m enjoying it, actually.

The main character, Holden, seems quite observant, and yet completely oblivious. It’s comforting, really.

I need to decide what to have for supper. I need to decide whether I should take a break from my pen name for a while. I need to decide whether I like the story for Raven and Rath enough to chop off the dead bits and finish the story.

I need to distract myself. I’m going to find food and drown myself in TV!

Rut

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Mine is deep, and the sides are high.

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Yesterday I cleaned off another shelf, scheduled two appointments, rescheduled one of them, went and did some quick shopping, and found a parking place. (Our small town had their Halloween parade last night, and we live close-ish to the route.)

I did not write.

Today I will write! Promise.

Shorter

Yesterday’s early meeting went well and was over quickly. Signed the paperwork, everything looked good, and now we just get to wait.

Realized I made a somewhat critical error on Tuesday that manifested on Wednesday, but it’s fixable. I know better, though, and I’m not sure how I let it slip through. Somewhat disappointed in myself.

I went to our regional writing thing last night, and after dropping my things off with the group I went and got a haircut. It’s shorter now and a million times cuter, IMHO.

I didn’t write at our writing thing, nor did I plot. My mind was elsewhere, and when I got home, it was simply spinning on one topic, unable to refocus. I watched some movie Marines kill some space monsters, worried a bit, and eventually went to bed.

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October, November, and December usually go by pretty quickly for me. They usually go by quickly, and they usually are accompanied by a great deal of stress and tears. I get depressed. I get overwhelmed. I get frustrated and sick and I end up coming through to my birthday on a wave of negativity. This was a huge part of why I stepped down from my regional leadership role with National Novel Writing Month. In fact, it could be argued that it was the only part. I thought it would help me to not have the pressure.

So far, not helping. I’m already getting stressed and overwhelmed. Now that the one thing I said I would help with has been managed, I’m hoping that those feelings will abate. I need to focus on self-care, and on managing my house and family, and that’s hard.

Very hard.

No time to say “Hello,”

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Well, it’s not quite time to say “Goodbye!” yet. I’m just feeling rushed. I’m not actually late for anything, either. Yet. Clearly, though, there is some anxiety.

Yesterday morning I got some words in, and the afternoon was spent all on working on something for someone else. I shouldn’t mind, but I’m irritated with the task. I just want it to be done so I can stop feeling any responsibility.

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Today is writing group – a Plot-in meeting, actually. And another morning meeting. I hope they both pass with a remarkable lack of stress.

Project “Runaway with my free time”

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It’s too bad that I discovered the Lifetime app with several (at least 10) seasons of Project Runway on it, because it’s been several seasons since I watched, and I love that show. So I’m letting it suck a lot of my time.

180 fiction words, 316 total words

But I made sure to get enough words last night to not make this my worst week ever.

I also made sure to get something published and off my plate so I could focus on the current work, and hopefully get the long fantasy that’s been hanging around since April off my plate before November. I think after I finish what I have started currently and get it up for sale, I’ll be in an okay place to really focus on November’s romances.

We’ll see.

I actually got quite a bit done in the last week. I published two things. One was a collection of previously written stories, and I did that in ebook and print format, trying KDP’s Print service for the first time. The second was just a short story, but I published wide, hitting both Smashwords and Amazon. I think that’s going to be the best path for me going forward. I tried Kindle Unlimited, and I don’t feel good with the results.

Regarding KDP’s Print service, it went well for me, but I have a lot of practice with CreateSpace already. I wasn’t able to order a proof copy before putting the book up for sale, and that will be a huge detractor for people new to publishing. On my first two or three books, I had major issues with both interior and exterior files, and it took three proofs with the first, two with the second, and one on the third to get comfortable with my templates and margins.

So even though there weren’t a lot of words written, I did get a lot done. That helps me feel better about the numbers.

On to the next week.

Peeking behind the curtain

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In my word log (a Google spreadsheet) I have one tab for all the words separated by category, one tab for weekly ranks, and one tab for monthly ranks. Most of the time I only get into the weekly tab once a week, and the monthly tab once a month.

Last night I peeked into the weekly tab, and found out that this week is on track to be my worst writing week yet this year.

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With daily fiction counts like that (^) it’s no wonder.

Bleh.

Today I’m going to try to work the weekly rank up past 35 so I don’t feel so bad when reporting back on Monday how the week went. It shouldn’t be that hard. I just need to sit in one spot until I get the words.

Bleh.

Modifying and Manipulating

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Yesterday I spent some words writing an “about” page for the site. I also considered adding back in some of the Ninja stuff I used to have on the site, but when I found it I realized it didn’t really speak to me anymore. I actually just got an idea of some other things I’d like to put up, so I’m going to do that next, right after this.

I wrote a bit, but a nap was more important. It seems to take longer to recover from changes to my routine, but that could also be because I haven’t had a routine before to realize this. Or rather, I haven’t had a routine like the one I’m trying to maintain right now to realize that changes really set me back. I’ll need to work harder to avoid this in the future.

90 fiction words, 478 total words

Today is laundry (naturally), and so I’ve got distracting things going on all around. I think I’ll be using most of my free time to work on plotting out November’s three romance novels. I have some notes to finish taking before I can do those things, so that, then plotting. Maybe some words in there at some point. The intent is there.

Write in the AM

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Another slow-ish day for words. I wrote in the morning, and then in the evening, I worked on a newsletter form for this site. It was a bit of a hassle, but it’s done.

Not that I have any idea what to write for a newsletter. But I convinced my office we should switch to the platform I chose for home, and I thought perhaps that it’s time I get some practice in with it.

Wanna get rambly bits from me in your email inbox? I know it’s not the same as a real letter, but it’s probably going to be close. 🙂 I can tell you about my characters, and vent my frustrations about how they won’t cooperate, and tell you how I plan to get revenge…stuff like that. 🙂

Anyway, I don’t want this to turn into a sell-y kind of thing, but I did want to mention it.

You know, in case you miss that giant, pink button over in the sidebar.

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The morning calls and the Youths are fighting. I’m off to do damage control.

Green dinosaurs and fluffy cats

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One thing I can see, one thing I know is there. The title struggles are silly. I know I can do better than this. Maybe I stop posting every day? I don’t know. The end of the year is near. Seems silly to stop now.

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Last night was a meeting for those rabid folks who like to go to Panera Bread in October and plot their novels. I didn’t do plotting, I took notes. I wrote in the morning – not a ton, but some, as you can see – and so felt comfortable not writing at the event.

I can’t get anything done with that level of volume anyway.

My mood seems to be, generally, not as positive lately. I have attributed this to the intense level of preparation and general busyness I experience at this time of year due to NaNoWriMo in years past, but I don’t especially have that excuse right now.

Well, at least it isn’t completely unexpected. That’s the silver lining I have right now.

I’ll be trying to write this morning again, using my evening to take more notes (they’re good ones), and at some point, I have a little busy work to fill in the empty spaces.

Who am I kidding – there are no empty places. It feels like every moment gets filled.

Monday Wednesday

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Starting my work week today feels weird. It will be very nice to have a three day week, but then next week will stink because it’ll be full. Oh well.

Yesterday’s experiment where I tried to quickly use KDP’s print book feature to publish the ebook I’d just done kind of failed. It wasn’t quick, and I ended up having to format everything like I usually do for print, which means lots of InDesign. I’m super grateful to have that tool at my disposal. Working without it would be a pain in the patootie.

94 fiction words, 351 total words

I also watched The Giver with Elder Youth, and Guardians of the Galaxy: Vol. 2 by myself. The second film made me laugh about as many times as I rolled my eyes, so while it was a success, I didn’t like it as much as the first film at all.

That’s all I have for now. I’m off to do some things I probably should have worked on much earlier than today. Bleh.